this is not for you.

You were a man with a
beer belly and tobacco
stains on his shirt,
watching suicides happen from his window.
I would have liked to drink with you.
They call you a misogynist, I believe it.
None of your love poems were
very lovely. Your prostitutes,
who you fondly called “whores,”
the woman you allowed to live with you,
Jane Jane Jane, all of them were
crushed in your metaphors.
You were better off alone but
never brave enough to believe it.
Who is? I chase love like you,
foam dripping from my mouth and
my hands bound. And I too have created a
relationship between solitude and
creation. I meet your followers, boys
with daggers in-between their teeth.
They are always too drunk and not
good at holding their liquor either.
Still, I hold their hands and guide
them through a stumbling conversation.
They show me the bluebirds in their
chests and I show them mine too.
You were a man
an outcast king
writing poems to his idols
shouting at the horse races
drooling at women in their mini skirts
but I like you,
Charles, Henry, I like you.
Because beneath your beer gnarled face
I see so much of me.

To Bukowski | Lora Mathis

Because people keep asking me if I like Bukowski or not. Yes. I do. 

(via lora-mathis)


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sad-queer:

tips for feeling more comfortable in your body (aka tips for inhabiting a body)

  • touch your own body as you would touch your lover
  • don’t stop yourself from smiling 
  • take pictures of your body, don’t delete them
  • practice being naked without worrying about your angles
  • practice wearing whatever you want, even if it’s just in your bedroom (then maybe in your backyard, then maybe with a close friend, then maybe with a few friends, then maybe to a party)
  • when you react negatively to other people’s bodies, stop and ask yourself why you’re feeling that way
  • constantly seek to unlearn the body hate you feel for others